The widow of Nirvana frontman Kurt Cobain revealed that the troubled musician tried to kill himself three times before he succeeded in 1994. Courtney Love said she would "kill" Cobain if he suddenly reappeared for the grief he caused to those who cared about him.

In an interview with Vanity Fair (via NME), Love shows that she still harbors feeling of anger towards her late husband's decision to end his life.

“Mad? Ya think?! If he came back right now I’d have to kill him, for what he did to us," the 47-year-old Love said. "I’d f____ kill him. I’d f___ him, and then I’d kill him.”

Love described Cobain's previous failed suicide attempts and how she had to resuscitate the grunge icon from drug overdoses.

“He tried to kill himself three times,” Love exclaimed. “He OD’d at least five times. I was the f____ E.M.S. I was always sticking pins in his balls. I carried around Narcan!" Narcan is a drug used to counter the effects of opiate overdose, such as heroine or morphine.

The Hole frontwoman claims she has lost about $250 million that's owed to her from Nirvana-related revenue and is obsessed with finding where the money went. However, the disorganized manner of keeping up with her financials existed even when Cobain was alive.

“We could never find our money!” she says. “We had $135,000 in our bank account. They said that if he would go do Lollapalooza he would make $11 million… Do you think Kurt would have killed himself if he had known he had $54 million?”

Love goes on to talk about her rocky relationship with her daughter Frances Bean Cobain and her regrets of not being the best mother she could be. It's an interesting read for sure. However, it does seem like Love is still riding the coattails of Kurt Cobain and Nirvana's legacy to stay in the spotlight. And how the hell do you lose track of a quarter billion dollars?

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